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Would anyone be willing to cosplay from Burst Angel with me? >w<


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Planned Cosplays

C.C. From Code Geass
So I know that a lot of people dont like/ dont watch this show so I actually am doing this cosplay alone. That and I havent really talked to anyone about doing a group yet. I dunno when shell be used maybe Metro if I go. But Im doing her for a while so I have her gown outfit planned, her original white outfit planned, and her "sleeping" outfit planned. Im ordering Pizza Hut before the con

WANT TO BE MY BESTF FRIEND AND MAKE ME CHEESE-KUN? XDDDDDD

Miku from Vocaloids (Black★Rock Shooter Ver.)
Ever since I became a fan of Vocaloids, Meiko has been my favorite by far. And Kaito. Oh Kaito. Hes another story. But then like a month or two ago I heard Black★Rock Shooter and I fell in looooooove. So yeah. Im loosing weight and cosplaying that version. I get a sword. (Or a giant blaster gun but I dont think thats happening lmao) I really want to get her done in time for Otronicon. Cause that con is like multiple days long and each day I want to cosplay a different video game/software character. So Ill have Aeris, Meiko, and BRS Miku. i think its four or five days long so for the other two I can do a Kingdom Hearts character or just use my awesome C.C. wig to be awesome.

But thats in January so thats a whole different story.

(P.S. WENDYS! WE HAVE TO GO TO WENDYS!)

Warrior Yuna from FFX-2
Ill be the first to admit, Im not the biggest fan of FFX-2. But I LOVE the warrior Yuna outfit. And Yuna. I just love her. This one is really up to debate cause a) id have to buy it cause Im not skilled enough to make it b) Its expensive. But Itd be awesome to some how pull that off XD

Temari from Naruto.
Hahaha NARUTOOOOOO. Oh boy. I really really really want to cosplay Temari. Cause I mean my little brother is Gaara, and Im his big sister! Hahaha. Get it? ANYWAYS. Shes also the most badass female Naruto character out there. End of story. I think Id do her second outfit, cause I like it the most. ANDREA. You should still do Kankuro when this happens. I have an awesome pose planned out already. <3

Madame Red from Black Butler
Cause I cant spell Kuroshithohfdkahfak. Anyways. I adore her charcter and her style. We should but together a Black Butler group. Thatd be amazing.





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Okay so Imma just post this to keep track of what Im doing, to keep my sporadic cosplay plans in line, and just to let you guys see that Im actually doing stuff XD

Amber Sweet
Repo! The Genetic Opera
Zydrate Anatomy Version
[x] Waist Cincher/Corest
[x] Rhinestone Bra
[x] Under shorts
[x] Skirt
[x] Boots
[x] Lace shawl/ extra strap
[x] Studded Choker
[x] Wig
= 100% DONE!!!!

Meiko
Vocaloids
Original Outfit
[x] Wig
[x] Belt
[ ] Skirt and Top
[x] Under half top thing
[x] Headphone and Microphone
[/] Boots (Have black ones that will work, might use short brown ones. Ive seen it with both :/)
[x] Gloves
=80% Done~

Aeris
Final Fantasy VII
Original Outfit
[ ] Wig
[ ] Dress
[x] Boots
[ ] Accessories (Bow, choker, braclets ect)
= 10% Done >.>

Pris
Balderunner
Black mesh outfit
[x] Makeup
[x] Wig
[ ] Shirt
[ ] Tube Top
[ ] Shorts
[ ] Tights
[ ] Legwarmers
[ ] Shoes
=15% Done, which is okay since I dont need her soon xD

SECRET COSPLAY
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PROGRESS:
ME:
[x] Basic Outfit
[x] Details
[x] Wig. (using real hair)
[x] No shoes
[ ] Leg Props
[ ] Prop
=75% Done~

JAKE:
[ ] Basic Outfit
[x] Under clothes
[x] No wig needed
=50% Done

I was going to say sorry for the last journal, buuuut I decided not to.

Which is kinda bitchy.

so sorry for that XD

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"You dont even know me... not at all" - Rasputina
"Make it through this and you wont look back..." - Stars
"Calm down, I'm calling you to say, I'm capsized staring on the edge of safe.
Calm down, I'm calling back to say, I'm home now, I'm coming around.
Coming around but nobody likes to, But I really like to cry.
Nobody likes me maybe, If I cry..." - Tegan and Sara

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A lot of people ask me why I DO NOT like APH at all.

I found someone who explained it perfectly.

"As promised, another hate stamp, this time specifically towards the atrocity known as "Hetalia: Axis Powers".

It's not even so much that it's anime that made me hate it, but more so this show in particular did.

It quietly makes fun of entire nations by personifying them in a form of a single being, equipped with specific characteristics. The only thing probably distinguishing this from racist stereotypes would be how some of their characteristics are based on historical tendencies and events.

But history is something completely trivial to this show. I mean, history is boring, let's show kids the nations as people who try to interact, it'd be like a teenage sitcom! Only anime.

"Surprisingly" the nation that is the least made fun of quietly is Japan.

"Surprisingly" has a jab at China, and the irritating russophobic stereotype for Russia. Not to mention how Italy is portrayed like a coward. Is that supposed to be a stab at the Italian army or at Benito Mussolini? Unfortunately still portrays Italy as a whole nation to be cowardly.

I mostly hate the show because it's making a mockery of history and nations. Also I hate it because it will ruin perception of world history for the naive who are probably the majority of the fans of this show.

Perfect example, and I don't know if this is actually portrayed so in the show, but either way the fandom yaoi girls got here too and the net is filled with the idea of Finland and Sweden being lovers.

Finland and Sweden - lovers?

FINLAND AND SWEDEN? LOVERS?

FINLAND AND FREAKING S-W-E-D-E-N?

My two Finnish friends were instantly struck speachless when I turned that little fact over to them and they instantly agreed that the authors deserve horrible fates.

Quote one friend: "I'd like to both mentally and physically abuse the author" It's like... it's like you (Russia - A.S.) being in love with poland.. or the states."

Quote another friend: "Finland loving Sweden? That's like Germany loving France"

And, naturally, I agree with them. This show butchers history, and makes fun of entire nations. Don't see why I shouldn't hate it.

I'd feel sorry for my Italian and Finnish friends because of this, but I got to deal with my own rage about how Russia is depicted in this show.

I joked with one of the aforementioned friends on how fandom girls will turn this into the most scary looking fandomfest ever. He did a pretty accurate impression, in my opinion: "Germany was SO CUTE in WW2!".

And I was right. To finish this off I will quote the fanposts from some vids related to this show on youtube and the ridiculousness that is FinlandxSweden in particular:


"my gawd. DDD:

I JUST got in2 APH (Axis Powers Hetalia) yesterday and I'm already uploading a video *shakes head*

I guess that just proves how aweome SuFin is XDDD

srsly.

MARRIED. COUPLE.

I think I'm gonna do another SuFin tribute 'cus there were 2 songs I wanted 2 do. DD:

I DO NOT OWN NEVERTHELESS, NATALIE GRANT, AXIS POWERS HETALIA, THE ART, THE MUSIC, ETC. I. OWN. NOTHING.

In closing:

Sweden + Finland 4EVAR 0O0"


"What a cute couple...I love Su-san and Finn
Thanks for the upload."


"Love Italy!
And England!
UK x US!!!


So cute!! *dies from squee* "


"I love Italy so much~ OMG! I found out that i'm half italian too! yaaaay!!!"


"i love italy!! Pasta!! XD""

That was taken from [link] which is 's authors comments on his anti-APH stamp which was part of the "hate experiment" which was a brillaint concept.


I dont care if you like it, so please stop telling me to like it or "give it a second chance".

Theres a lot Id like to add on to his comments about why he doesnt like it, but I believes he sums it up quite nicely.

Ill tell you them if you want to know..

PLEASE DO NOT COMMENT ON THIS JOURNAL JUST TO BASH ME FOR NOT LIKING THIS SERIES.

Thats all.

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"You dont even know me... not at all" - Rasputina
"Make it through this and you wont look back..." - Stars
"Calm down, I'm calling you to say, I'm capsized staring on the edge of safe.
Calm down, I'm calling back to say, I'm home now, I'm coming around.
Coming around but nobody likes to, But I really like to cry.
Nobody likes me maybe, If I cry..." - Tegan and Sara

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What's your mental illness?

ANOREXIA

[ ] You have dry skin.
[ ] You eat 1 meal.
[ ] You're very weak.
[x] You hate your body.
[ ] You starve yourself.
[x] You have low self esteem.
[ ] You use laxatives.
[x] You need to be more skinny.
[x] People always say you're skinny, but you think fat.
[ ] People think you are too skinny.

Total: 3

ADHD (ATTENTION DEFICIT/HYPERACTIVITY DISORDER)

[ ] Your mind is all over the place.
[ ] You are hyper most of the time.
[ ] You barely pay attention to anything.
[ ] You cannot cooperate with people well.
[ ] You seem to never sit still.
[ ] You talk all the time.
[ ] You need attention 24/7.

Total: 0

BIPOLAR DISORDER

[x] You can act wild at times then the next day you are depressed.
[x] You are very irritable.
[x] You barely get any or no sleep.
[x] You are anti-social.
[ ] You have very high self esteem at times.
[ ] You are abusing alcohol, drugs, or sex.
[x] You have thought of/attempted suicide.

total: 5

BULIMA NERVOSA

[ ] You throw up all of your food.
[ ] You throw up even when you don't feel sick.
[ ] You have no control over how you eat.
[ ] You use laxatives.
[x] You have overly exercised to where you almost fainted/passed out.
[x] You always say you are fat, when you aren't.
[ ] People think you are way too skinny.

Total: 2

CONDUCT DISORDER

[ ] You are a bully.
[x] You threaten other people.
[x] You often find yourself in fights.
[x] You have used a weapon that could cause injury to others.
[x] You are cruel to humans and/or animals.
[ ] You have raped/molested someone.
[ ] You destroy property on purpose
[ ] You always lie.
[ ] You stay out all night.
[ ] You have ran away from home.

Total: 4

DEPRESSION

[x] You find no hope in your future.
[ ] You find no longer excitement over the activities you used to love.
[x] You always find yourself around the house or in bed all day.
[x] You can be/are anti-social.
[x] You have low self esteem.
[x] Everything bad that happens is always your fault.
[x] You always seem to be weak or have physical features hurt.
[ ] You are failing school.
[x] You have thought of/attempted suicide.
[ ] You have ran away from home.
[ ] Hope is no longer there for you.

Total: 7

OCD (OBSESSIVE COMPULSIVE DISORDER)

[ ] You have daily rituals.
[x] You have disturbing thoughts or thoughts you hate.
[ ] You have to do a certain thing until it feels right.
[ ] You have to keep things in a certain order.
[x] You have harmed yourself.
[ ] You are afraid you will get an STD, AIDS, or any other kind of disease.
[ ] You have to check everything over again.

Total: 2


PTSD (POST-TRAUMATIC STRESS DISORDER)

[x] You repeatedly have flashbacks of horrible moments/memories in your life.
[x] You repeatedly have dreams of horrible moments/memories in your life.
[x] You sometimes (ALWAYS ;_ think the event will happen again.
[x] You feel highly uncomfortable when remembered/remembering the event.
[x] You can be/are anti-social.
[x] You have lost interest in the things you used to love.
[x] You have not had a lot of sleep lately.
[x] You worry about dying at a early age or dying at all.
[x] You can have angry outbursts.
[x] You act younger than your age. (sometimes I really can)

Total: 10

SCHIZOPHRENIA

[x] You often have hallucinations.
[x] You have strange, unusual dreams or thoughts.
[x] You can be confused about reality and fantasy.
[x] You think people are always staring at you or talking about you.
[x] You have extreme anxiety or fearfulness.
[x] You have difficulty with relationships with family, friends, and opposite sex.
[ ] You do not take care of your hygiene like you should.
[ ] You are very shy.
[x] You often talk to yourself.

Total: 7

Lol well surprise surprise I got PTSD.

Which brings me to the REAL mental illness in question here.

A lot of you know about how i had a really bad realationship with a girl named Ash. Before it happened I was always very careful with emotions and barely showed them. Then after, I became completely and fully apathetic, which was diagnosed about 3 days after. Recently I went for a 'check-up' and they redid my psych eval. It came out with PTSD. Which makes a lot of sense if you know the story of Ash and leading up to her. They said they can treat it and help it and because of that Ill lose my apathy, which I think is a good thing. But I dunno how Ill handle feeling for real again after so long. But Im going through with the treatment. Sooo well see. :/


ZONACON!!

Friday

So this is the Repo! The Genetic Opera day I believe :3 I'll be going as Amber Sweet. So far she is soooo close to being done. Her wig looks great, I have materials to make the scars (still need to practice though), her corset is finally finished, so is the skirt. Well basically all thats left to be done is to finish rhinestoning one half of the bra, attach the lace shoulders, and get new boots. But basically, she'll be done way ahead of time. Which makes me feel great XD
PROGRESS:
[x] Waist Cincher/Corest
[x] Rhnestone Bra (FINALLY DONE!!!!)
[x] Under shorts
[x] Skirt
[ ] Boots
[ ] Lace shawl/ extra strap
[ ] Studded Choker
[x] Wig

Saturday

Saturday will also be awesome because its Dark Woods Circus day. Ill be going as Meiko and her dress and such are already done. And Im pretty sure we have everyone even Haku and Nero. So thats going to be freaking awesome. XD Sooooo not really much to say on that day :3
PROGRESS:
[x] Red Dress
[x] White collared undershirt
[x] Wig
[x] Shoes
[x] Circus Flyer
[ ] Balloon. (Yes. I want a balloon) XD

Sunday

So. I had nothing planned for today because it was a tales of the abyss day I believe and I havent played it so obviously I dont have a cosplay from it. :< BUT I FIGURED SOEMTHING OUT. And its super secret and no one knows...

EXCEPT FOR MINI GAARA. (My little Brother) and the only reason he knows about it is because hes a part of it. And its his second offical cosplay. And sadly its not Mini-Reno or Mini-Axel, though he is planning on those and is super duper excited about them.

But yush. Super duper secret. >.>

PROGRESS:
ME:
[x] Basic Outfit
[ ] Details
[x] Wig. (using real hair)
[x] No shoes
[ ] Leg Props
[ ] Prop

JAKE:
[ ] Basic Outfit
[x] Under clothes
[x] No wig needed


MEGACONNNN!!!!
Friday Im Aeris, Saturday Im Meiko. More detailed journal when it gets closer~ :3

AERIS PROGRESS:
[ ] Wig
[ ] Dress
[ ] Boots
[ ] Accessories (Bow, choker, braclets ect)

WHOO!

MEIKO PROGRESS:
[x] Wig
[x] Belt
[ ] Skirt and Top
[x] Under half top thing
[x] Headphone and Microphone
[/] Boots (Have black ones that will work, might use short brown ones. Ive seen it with both :/)
[x] Gloves

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"You dont even know me... not at all" - Rasputina
"Make it through this and you wont look back..." - Stars
"Calm down, I'm calling you to say, I'm capsized staring on the edge of safe.
Calm down, I'm calling back to say, I'm home now, I'm coming around.
Coming around but nobody likes to, But I really like to cry.
Nobody likes me maybe, If I cry..." - Tegan and Sara

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"Write a paragraph to three people. Some one you hate, some one you love and some one who is a best friend. You dont have to tell them who they are or post names. This is an excersise to let it all out"


() BEST FRIEND ()

You're my best friend because youre always there.

Im so glad to have met you. Sure,we have had our ups and downs but honestly, friendships dont tend to last when there "perfect". Honestly I am really glad that I figured out that my feelings for you back then were just of like a sisterly/best friend love. I think a romantic relationship may of ruined our bond and hey, I dont want that to happen at all. We seriously need to hang more again though and thats why Im really glad that next con I know Ill have a whole day with you. I miss the good ol time like at megacon waiting for the rest of the group to get there like six hours late XD But, I know that eventually we wont have the gift of living in the same city and I really hope we can stay friends through out the distance because if I lost you as a friend that'd be terrible and I'd be miserable ect, ect. So yeah. You better keep visting down here

() I HATE YOU ()

I hate you because youre terrible

This is such a hard one. And I wish it was because I could say that I dont hate anyone, but honestly theres two people I cannot stand. Lets start off with you. You beat me down and im not talking about emotionally. Your physical abuse messed me up so bad that I can honestly say that I feel worthless all the time. Some one makes a joke i get defensive right away, or if they playfully hit me Im autoatically convinced they hate me and want me dead, just like how you feel about me. The scars you have left on me run deeper then flesh and i hope one day your own ghost catch up to you. The worst part is that I feel like i cant honestly hate you because you have such a legitimate reason to hate my every being. I know I was wrong, I know I messed up, I know I ruined your life. You ruined mine too. So arnt we even? Obviously not. I know that you wont stop attack and I wont stop fighting back. Were both too stubborn and equal in sins.
The second person I rather not talk about. All I can say was that you constantly upset and anger me, and I dont know what I was thinking.

() I LOVE YOU ()

I love you because youre my everything.

It hurts so much to see how you dont like yourself, and dont see yourself as beautiful. How you dont see how amazing you truly are. I wish for once you would see how gorgeous you are inside and out. I wish you would see that even though you think you mess up everything, everything you have ever done has only made my life better. You see, I mean from the bottom of my heart when I tell you youre my world, that youre everything to me. The best words to describe how I feel and how much I love you are not in existance theyre so great. Just like how space never ends, neither does my love. Just like the stars are innumerable, so is how much I love you. It does pain me though when you say youve failed, or that youre useless. Its so frusterating because its so untrue. I just want to shake you and hug you until you realize that you ahve never failed me and that you have never been useless. Just talking to you makes me feel like life is worth living. You give me a reason to get through every night. So please, never think that youve failed or are usless. I know things have been working against us but I have faith that we can make it through, and I know we will. I could go on so much more but I dont even know if you'll read this. just know that I always love you so much and Im always thinking of you.

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"You dont even know me... not at all" - Rasputina
"Make it through this and you wont look back..." - Stars
"Calm down, I'm calling you to say, I'm capsized staring on the edge of safe.
Calm down, I'm calling back to say, I'm home now, I'm coming around.
Coming around but nobody likes to, But I really like to cry.
Nobody likes me maybe, If I cry..." - Tegan and Sara

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So lets get that forgein language Slovenian ramble mumbo jumbo off the page. (Btw sorry if I confused you with the random language change XD)

Anyways. ZonaCon is a little over a month away. So time to start planning out cosplays!

Friday

So this is the Repo! The Genetic Opera day I believe :3 I'll be going as Amber Sweet. So far she is soooo close to being done. Her wig looks great, I have materials to make the scars (still need to practice though), her corset is finally finished, so is the skirt. Well basically all thats left to be done is to finish rhinestoning one half of the bra, attach the lace shoulders, and get new boots. But basically, she'll be done way ahead of time. Which makes me feel great XD
BTW: Andrea, we totally should go shopping for pavi. It'll be epic fun XD and I still need to get your wallet back to you >.>

Saturday

Saturday will also be awesome because its Dark Woods Circus day. Ill be going as Meiko and her dress and such are already done. And Im pretty sure we have everyone even Haku and Nero. So thats going to be freaking awesome. XD Sooooo not really much to say on that day :3

Sunday

So. I had nothing planned for today because it was a tales of the abyss day I believe and I havent played it so obviously I dont have a cosplay from it. :< BUT I FIGURED SOEMTHING OUT. And its super secret and no one knows...

EXCEPT FOR MINI GAARA. (My little Brother) and the only reason he knows about it is because hes a part of it. And its his second offical cosplay. And sadly its not Mini-Reno or Mini-Axel, though he is planning on those and is super duper excited about them.

But yush. Super duper secret. >.>

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"You dont even know me... not at all" - Rasputina
"Make it through this and you wont look back..." - Stars
"Calm down, I'm calling you to say, I'm capsized staring on the edge of safe.
Calm down, I'm calling back to say, I'm home now, I'm coming around.
Coming around but nobody likes to, But I really like to cry.
Nobody likes me maybe, If I cry..." - Tegan and Sara