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"Write a paragraph to three people. Some one you hate, some one you love and some one who is a best friend. You dont have to tell them who they are or post names. This is an excersise to let it all out"


() BEST FRIEND ()

You're my best friend because youre always there.

Im so glad to have met you. Sure,we have had our ups and downs but honestly, friendships dont tend to last when there "perfect". Honestly I am really glad that I figured out that my feelings for you back then were just of like a sisterly/best friend love. I think a romantic relationship may of ruined our bond and hey, I dont want that to happen at all. We seriously need to hang more again though and thats why Im really glad that next con I know Ill have a whole day with you. I miss the good ol time like at megacon waiting for the rest of the group to get there like six hours late XD But, I know that eventually we wont have the gift of living in the same city and I really hope we can stay friends through out the distance because if I lost you as a friend that'd be terrible and I'd be miserable ect, ect. So yeah. You better keep visting down here

() I HATE YOU ()

I hate you because youre terrible

This is such a hard one. And I wish it was because I could say that I dont hate anyone, but honestly theres two people I cannot stand. Lets start off with you. You beat me down and im not talking about emotionally. Your physical abuse messed me up so bad that I can honestly say that I feel worthless all the time. Some one makes a joke i get defensive right away, or if they playfully hit me Im autoatically convinced they hate me and want me dead, just like how you feel about me. The scars you have left on me run deeper then flesh and i hope one day your own ghost catch up to you. The worst part is that I feel like i cant honestly hate you because you have such a legitimate reason to hate my every being. I know I was wrong, I know I messed up, I know I ruined your life. You ruined mine too. So arnt we even? Obviously not. I know that you wont stop attack and I wont stop fighting back. Were both too stubborn and equal in sins.
The second person I rather not talk about. All I can say was that you constantly upset and anger me, and I dont know what I was thinking.

() I LOVE YOU ()

I love you because youre my everything.

It hurts so much to see how you dont like yourself, and dont see yourself as beautiful. How you dont see how amazing you truly are. I wish for once you would see how gorgeous you are inside and out. I wish you would see that even though you think you mess up everything, everything you have ever done has only made my life better. You see, I mean from the bottom of my heart when I tell you youre my world, that youre everything to me. The best words to describe how I feel and how much I love you are not in existance theyre so great. Just like how space never ends, neither does my love. Just like the stars are innumerable, so is how much I love you. It does pain me though when you say youve failed, or that youre useless. Its so frusterating because its so untrue. I just want to shake you and hug you until you realize that you ahve never failed me and that you have never been useless. Just talking to you makes me feel like life is worth living. You give me a reason to get through every night. So please, never think that youve failed or are usless. I know things have been working against us but I have faith that we can make it through, and I know we will. I could go on so much more but I dont even know if you'll read this. just know that I always love you so much and Im always thinking of you.

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"You dont even know me... not at all" - Rasputina
"Make it through this and you wont look back..." - Stars
"Calm down, I'm calling you to say, I'm capsized staring on the edge of safe.
Calm down, I'm calling back to say, I'm home now, I'm coming around.
Coming around but nobody likes to, But I really like to cry.
Nobody likes me maybe, If I cry..." - Tegan and Sara